magickalconnections

Is it the full moon in Sagittarius that makes me feel so vulnerable and out of place these days? 

Do you feel the same?

It seems like, on an energetic level, this year 2025 came in like a tornado destroying the very foundation of what my life is about. This profound feeling of burnout that comes more from an introspective perspective rather than from actually overworking, has me feeling somewhat confused. 

It feels like the actions I´m taking, the work I’m doing, and my behavior are completely out of sync with my inner world. As if there were two Wandas. The one who works diligently and does her duty every day to be able to pay the bills as she is supposed to, even if selling luxury items to a bunch of rich customers that act like spoiled brats makes no sense to her.

And then there is the Wanda with her own inner world full of profound values, questions, passions, and the overwhelming desire to share her thoughts, feelings, and experiences with the world.

Somehow the 2 Wandas feel completely disconnected. It feels like a fire burning inside, trying to spread and make a positive impact and a difference in people’s lives, however, the fire is being controlled and kept burning as low as possible by all the things that should be done and need to be done.

But isn´t this fire precisely the authenticity everyone is talking about and looking for on some level? In today’s world, where we are flooded by superficial desires, wants, and needs that never really reflect who we are in essence, isn’t it our duty to use our own fire of values to offer something more profound to the world?

• Something that goes much deeper than satisfying the need to gather things, look like a model, and be accepted by society. 
• Something to help people fill their inner void and nourish their souls. 
• Something that teaches them how to feel whole in body, mind, and spirit in their own unique way.

It feels horrible to have everything you need but feel so unsatisfied and discontent.

Sometimes, it makes me even feel guilty to see how so many people struggle to meet just their basic, existential needs such as food, and here I am, quietly complaining about my own situation.

Mind you, I know from personal experience what it’s like not knowing how you are going to feed your kids tomorrow because you literally lost everything over night. I´ve been in that situation more than once, and it feels devastating and desperate.

Today, I might not be in the best position, but I have enough to cover my basic needs. And, of course, especially given my history, I´m very grateful for this.

I never was the one dreaming about a luxurious life with enough money in the bank to spend on luxury, a nice house and car, and the financial freedom to do whatever I want.

Maybe it’s because I’m a Pisces and I simply see the world a bit differently. I have never been too interested in material wealth, and I’m glad there are many other people who are to balance out my own lack of ambition on a collective energy level.

Don´t get me wrong, I worked hard to achieve independence and live at a place where I can feel well all around, have a roof over my head, and food on the table.

I even just received my permanent residency in Mexico, and this is definitely a reason to celebrate.

Sometimes, I have my moments where I think it would be nice to be financially free and able to travel or buy my own place. 

But deep down that’s not what’s really what’s keeping me up at night. 

The nice-to-haves for me are not the reason for burnout. It goes much deeper than just wanting to get more out of a job that takes all my energy for little pay that just covers the bills and the occasional coffee in town.

A friend of mine recently posted on Facebook. I strongly dislike social media, and if you know me, you know that I rarely ever post anything. 

But what she said hit me:

´What is important in life is the souls we touch every day.´

Whereas I believe that we touch more souls than we know with just our presence and intentions, I think feeling burnout has a lot to do with our intentional and conscious actions.

Sometimes, feeling burnt out requires a reevaluation of inner values and an honest inventory inspection of our actions.

• What do I believe in? Do I act like it? Where in my daily life could I start aligning my inner values with what or how I´m doing things? Even just a little bit.
• Am I conscious of my thoughts? Where can I become more aware and catch myself if I start thinking in a way that does not align with who I am?
• Is the overall direction I´m going towards aligned with my vision? What would have to happen/What would I have to do to realign my values with the direction of my life?

Once you find some answers to these questions, you can start structuring your true, authentic vision. Structure and discipline have to do with thinking about some little thing you could omit or add to your daily behavior that slowly takes you into the right direction. 

It’s not an all-or-nothing mentality.

Sometimes it might not be a good idea to decide to quit your job today to start following your heart and passion even though there are many accounts of those who have done just that and succeeded, I´m not sure this is the approach that would work for me.

After all, if you want to change your diet, you don’t just stop eating until you have figured out the perfect diet. You make little changes bit by bit. You eliminate things and you add healthier choices to your existing diet. And bit by bit things change until one day you wake up and can´t remember for the life of you when exactly things changed, and you sure as hell cannot imagine how you lived life before the change.

This is because real change doesn’t happen the moment you decide to do things differently. It´s a process. Gaining our authority and becoming authentic is a process. It’s not all or nothing. 

We need to trust that process and just take the first step. That’s all.

I hope my reflections on burnout and what to do when you feel like nothing makes sense and you just cannot take another day of that same routine, have inspired you to think about your own situation and how you can get closer t aligning your inner values and authenticity with your behavior, actions, and life situation.

I’m definitely going inwards these days and have committed myself to taking that little bold action step today to light a new fire to my project of helping moms recuperate their body postpartum and feel like the warriors they are.

Here I´am sharing my first, very imperfect step. It´s a short YouTube video revealing the one crucial thing you need to know about your abs that many postpartum women overlook:

https://youtu.be/34R9t2gJP50?si=o_x3BjmTdYVJZ6nB

I would love your comments on YouTube or here, so I know whether I’m doing this right or need to adjust my approach. So all you warrior moms out there, please hit me with your comments!

To all of you who have read this far, any tips and encouragement for those who are starting out on this journey of claiming their spot in this world, are welcome and highly appreciated. 

Let’s have each other’s back!!!

With all my love, Wanda